A friend of mine recently created a list of 25 things that described her. She shared it with all of her friends and it was incredible to read. I really learned a lot about her just from reading a list about her true self.
As is the case with most of my blogs, I've now had a list of 25 things rattling around in my head. (I've had a blog entry about my dislike of snaps on jammies at 1am in there for months now. If only I wrote them all down!) So today, instead of thinking about a journal entry over and over, I'm finally going to sit down and write it.
There is no order to this, just writing them as they pop into my head.
1. I need to be a more positive person. I act it well & quite often, but now I need to be that way deep down inside.
2. I still hop online and form a brief weather forecast each day.
3. Though I complain now, I think I'll come to miss my overnight nursing sessions with Charlie. It can be such a special time for the two of us.
4. I am married to my best friend. He is, without a doubt, my perfect match & the most amazing person I know.
5. My job in television gave me a lot more confidence than I ever realized.
6. I love the glow of tiny, white Christmas lights.
7. Hearing the words "I wud you mom" from my toddler is worth its weight in gold.
8.Sometimes, when Andy is out of town on business, I find I'm still afraid of the dark.
9. I can't watch horror movies. Even their previews haunt me for weeks.
10. I love when Andy makes me laugh so hard I can't breathe.
11. I take a lot of pride in breastfeeding Charlie. I felt like a failure for not being able to do so for Jack.
12. I love Christmas. And even though I'm blessed to have a generous family, it's really not about the gifts. There's just something in the air that time of year. Hearts are lighter, dark streets are lit with Christmas lights & there's always good music to play.
13. I talk to God.
14. I love to watch Jackson dance. It's a cross between a hoedown, being in a mosh-pit and the chicken dance.
15. I finally, 6 months after having Charlie & moving, feel like myself again.
16. I measure my job as a parent by how well my children behave.
17. I have met one of my dearest friends online. And though we see each other only once or twice a year, she means the world to me.
18. I miss my girls in Evansville. Thinking of them is one of the few things that makes me tear up instantly.
19. It makes me smile each time I catch my mom and Ron looking at each other when they think no one else is watching. You can see the love they share and it's amazing.
20. The march mommy group I belong to has been a godsend. Who could have thought that 3 years later we'd all still be so close.
21. I worry that Andy will die at a young age like his dad.
22. If I could cross time and space, I would bring Bill back for a family dinner. The only thing missing when we gather is his presence.
23. I have had and overcome post-pardum depression. twice.
24. Every once in a while I have a dream about someone stealing one of my kids. It terrifies me.
25. I love the budding friendship I share with my sister-in-law.